always, forever, but never my own.

The cornflower blue
Hue of the walls
The other inhabitants
Residing in rooms
The hospital scheme
Of the CIC
I'm only here
Because no one wants me.
I'm not allowed to think for myself
Except when writing these words
I am something else
This criminal society
Has gotten me down
I've been promising forever
But it's not my time.
Here in my room
I guess it is over,
This is the last time
I will write to my lover
I've tried Guru's and psychics
But none can tell,
Who i am in love with
Or how to break the spell.