night terrors

constant anxiety
gripping me fast
suffocating the very
heart in my chest
i have these fears
that hold me
behind, the fire door of my flat
i creep out silently
to escape,
this claustrophobic
sense of guilt
that i have some error
i should regret
for writing these words
as a lament
for all i have known
this is my life
i have the freedom
and liberty
to do as i please
but no one would ever like me
for thinking this...