a few words with God

i've been betrayed by friends
i was dependant on for survival.
i've been taken for an idiot
by spiritualist mediums.
i have begged for a love
to call all my own,
only to be presented with problems
that i cannot possibly solve.
i've been lead by the nose
to desperation and breakdown.
i've been challenged on a love
where i cannot bear witness,
to it's making or passing...
and i know of no God
who can grant me my solitude
without being set upon.