take it from me

apologies aren't common
in crazy times like these
if we were on
some other planet
we could all cry
and demand promises
well, i have made some mistakes in life
and i have picked at every scar
my spirit is broken
my blood is boiling
and i feel
i have come to harm
so this is what i have to offer
from one schizoid
to another
my devoted forgiveness
and with the world as my witness
i will let you have it all.

i fear your love

you demand of me
the child you will not let go of
to enjoy the fruits
peaches and kumquat's
in a snake pit of sin
and violence
to live amongst the pity
of your husbands children
and your lovers'
solitude.
my protest,
is that you have harmed
the one and the many of my heart
and we are not to blame
for your incensed guilt;
i am not your husband,
i am not your lovers',
i am not your child,
though, i admit - back then
i  was your friend.
and when friends
become at alms with one another
my heart fails.
i cannot love you, any longer.
let me be
or let me die -
in the arms of those that always did.

espouse

porn orphan
just a young woman
trying to live life
abused at the hands
of her bullying
espouse
took a walk to the docklands
to howl at the moon
for comfort and family
had abused her too
money,
hey honey!
how much can i charge?
she took all the shit
and bears all the scars.
she once wished so fondly
for what could have been?
the truth is that the lies,
have destroyed her belief
the matters may make us
a victim of 'why?'
the only rational answer
seems suicide.