ignored

there's little joy
in my life
right now, in this world
i have faithfully
stayed committed
to the truth of my heart

i'm not contrite
or praying selfishly
for some taste
of euphoria
i just wish to be happy

should my heart
be deceptive
and my mind diseased
cannot i be
totally at peace
with this world
as it is

should my anger cause me
to shout out loud
or the horror of politics
bring me down
then what may i ask for
when talking of love?

am i deluded and stupid?
or just being ignored?