mistakes

oh boy,
have i made some mistakes
the whole mind/body,
trust/commitment
and sex
dichotomy
and it did!
lessons learned
freedom promised,
responsibilities
rolled away like the stone
that blocks my escape
nothing more that can hinder
other than
government policies
and psychiatric assessments
i am sure to move
far from here
and start again,
alone -
but still looking for love
that's the mystery
and i am sure one day
my dream will come true.

baa humbug!

bearing down
upon me
the challenge that i face
hold up, raise the bar
before i scream
Wheest!
this anger eating at me
the pointed finger
and raised voice
chanting curse
you want to be bought -
- you want something
for free.
well, i've listened
and kept my patience
hunkered down
and turned the other cheek
but i am afraid, i know my mind
and none of you deserve a thing!
what is this criticism and screaming orders,
really all about?
if you don't like me then why for the love of me
do you come here
anyway?